What Should You Do When Facing Difficult Trials in Life
You may be wondering why I did not post anything in this blog for more than a week. That was because my wife is undergoing treatment for severe renal disease. Her two kidneys are not functioning and she needs either a kidney donor or a lifetime of hemodialysis – both undesirable choices. But before you go pity her, I just want to share what happened last night – the night before her surgery.
“How do you feel?” I asked.
“I’m ok. How about you?”
“Well, honestly, I worry about you.” Her face darkened a bit as I said those words. It means I need to elaborate further. So I did. “You cannot tell me not to worry because I care for you.”
“I will be alright. God is with me. Besides, the doctors assured us that the procedures will be very easy and will not take too long. What’s wrong with you?”
Now the tone of her voice is a bit higher, which means, I am doing something wrong. What else can I do, but to backtrack a bit?
“Ok. I will not worry. I know God will see us through,” I assured her. Somehow, as I say those words, the conviction came strong and I actually believe what I am saying, and the anxiety immediately disappeared.
“Amen.” She smiled. “Why don’t you come over here and give me a hug?”
The moment I felt her bony back, I felt sad, but surprisingly calm and trusting that God will make a way. Her weak embrace almost took all my courage away, but in a mysterious way, that same embrace touch my heart and I know she will be okay.
“You trust the Lord, Pastor.” She whispered those words. I know she wanted to make me smile, as she always does. “The Lord has never left us in the dark, hasn’t He?”
“Yes, He’s always with us. Even when we disappoint Him, He’s remained faithful to us.”
“That’s good.” She lovingly tapped my back. “Good boy!” followed by a soft laugh.
As I turn away from that embrace, I felt renewed. I regained my strength and my focus to face the crisis we’re going through. Then I realized that’s how we are well-connected. A hug, an embrace, a joke, a smile, and even a soft laughter (due to shortening of breath) can energize a worrier like me.
We’ve been married for almost twenty years now. We have braved a lot of storms in our lives. We’ve gone through various trying times. We overcame, because we have each other, and no matter what, we will stay together. I believe this is the best way of facing the storms that come our lives – by em-bracing for the storms. Sticking together, no matter what.
“How about a kiss?” she said. I obliged.
Note: As I write this post, my wife is in the Operating Room for I.J. insertion and AVF procedure (whatever those letters mean) to prepare her for her first dialysis.