HOW CAN I SING?

A follower of this blog commented on About page and said, “Hey, you used to write great, but the last couple of posts have been kinda boring. I miss your great writings. Past few posts are just a bit out of track! Come on!” I accept this as a wake-up call so I take note of how I am writing.

This can be because of the situation we are facing now. Although it is not a reason enough to write mediocre posts, but somehow it really affects the way I write. That is also why I had very few posts on Family Matters last month. Because I don’t want you to get affected with how I feel, I focused on my other blog, http://letslearnwriting.com where I write neutral articles.

Going back to the comment, I recalled a story of a parakeet from a book written by Warren Weirbe. Chirpee, a parakeet, is a pet of an old lady. The owner loves he bird so much; the bird, in return, sings her songs to the delight of her mistress.

One morning, the lady decided to clean Chirpee’s cage. While singing her song, the woman brought the nozzle of her vacuum cleaner near the bottom of her bird’s cage. Then something unexpected happened. The telephone rang. The woman looked to the direction of the telephone, and forgot that the vacuum cleaner is still on an in her hand, with its nozzle inside the cage.

But the most important thing that she forgot is that Chirpee is also in the cage. And in a split second, the humming of the vacuum cleaner was changed to a “swooppphhh!” and after another second resumed its humming. The telephone continues to ring, so the old lady decided to turn off the cleaner and answer the call. It was a wrong number, so she went back to what she was doing.

To her horror, Chirpee is not in the cage anymore. It does not take a deep thought to realize what happened to the bird. So the woman search the dust bag of the vacuum cleaner. And there is Chirpee, covered with soot and her own dung, shocked because she still cannot understand what happened to her world.

Out of deep love and affection, the old woman, carrying Chirpee in her hands, hurried to the kitchen and turned on the faucet. She put the bird under running water to clean her thoroughly. After a few minutes, the woman realized that Chirpee is soaking wet. So she rushed into her room, still carrying the poor parakeet, got her blow drying, plugged it in, turned it on to full blast and blow dried Chirpee. In only a matter of minutes the woman succeeded to get Chirpee to her “shining glory” as she was before.

Every time the old woman looks at her bird, she ask herself, “What’s the matter with my Chirpee? She does not sing anymore.” Who can sing, when after being sucked into a vacuum cleaner, was rushed under a running water and blow dried? She also got that shocked look in her eyes.

 

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The Fifth Member of my Family

I have introduced all the members of my family except one. My first three posts have contained episodes with my family members, namely:

Daeia, my eldest child – http://familymattersdiary.com/my-family-matters/ In this post I related an incident when my Daeia broke a plate and the value of forgiveness.

Beth, my beloved wife – http://familymattersdiary.com/strike-the-original-match/ In this post we reviewed the original creation and how it relates to how husband and wife must treat each other. I really love this post and I have read it several times already. I do not grow weary of reading this story.

Johndee, my son – http://familymattersdiary.com/pain-pain-go-away/ This is another well-read and very much loved post. Actually, it started a series of discussions on pain. In this post, Johndee started by asking, “Why do we experience problems?” This triggered a serious explanation on how to look at pain and problems in our lives – how to live with and love them.

But, there’s another member of our family, which I haven’t introduced yet. He’s so wonderful I ask myself why it is only until now that I wrote about him.

His name is Bubu. He is a dog, but not an ordinary one. He acts as if he understands what we are saying to him. Like other dogs, he follows our bidding. He jumps up and down whenever we come home even when we are away for only a few hours. He loves to eat fish and meat. But he has a wonderful characteristic, which I myself cannot believe, but the proofs cannot be denied.

Bubu suffers for us when we are sick. It is as if he takes away what we are supposed to be suffering. When I am still young, two nights with less sleep will cause my nose to bleed. I have been experiencing that before Bubu comes our lives. But when Bubu is old enough, I noticed that when I had less sleep, my nose will bleed once. After one or two hours, Bubu’s nose will bleed and mine will cease.

When any of my family suffers from colds, in a matter of hours, Bubu will have his and ours will stop. Beth should be suffering from stomachaches due to her illness, but she never experienced any. Bubu has been whining due to painful stomach since Beth had her first dialysis session. We know it was his stomach because when we rub his tummy, he stops whining.

I know you may have “scientific” explanations on why this happens. I had mine, too, before. For some time, I also thought it could be coincidence, but coincidence does not happen with consistency. In one or two occasions, coincidence may happen, but it is not a coincidence when each time it happens.

No matter what, we are happy we have Bubu in our family. He is the fifth member. He loves us and we love him. And that’s enough.

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The Moon’s Two Faces

The moon is always pleasant to look at. Although we know that it does not possess its own light and merely a reflection of a greater heavenly body, we still admire its beauty. This is partly because we compare it to the sun. While we cannot look directly at the sun, we can gaze at the moon as long as we desire.  While it hurts our eyes to look up while it’s day, it soothes the same when we look at the sky at night. While the sun’s radiance defies the beauty of the stars, the moon, with it selflessness enhances them.

Lovers want to stroll under the moonlight, but hate to stay under the sun. We also created phrases such as “once in a blue moon”, but we never do the same regarding the sun. While the sun is far more superior to the moon in almost every aspect pertaining to strength, the moon eclipses the sun in its more gentle ways.

Looking closely at the moon will reveal its ugly surface. Powerful telescopes revealed craters on its face like that of a battered boxer. The dark side of the moon has been the hiding place of dark forces such as the antagonists in a Transformers movie. The lighter side of the moon can turn a human being, even a wizard, into a werewolf, as experienced by one of the protagonists in Harry Potter series. Superstitious people believe that prolonged stare at the moon can make someone lose his sanity.

My life with Beth is very much like the moon – beautiful, endearing, sweet and refreshing. Her unselfish ways capture our hearts and can turn around anything negative into a pleasant experience. Her positive disposition is her best gift to me. She can make everything look and taste good. There are times I wondered if I had married a goddess or a magical creature disguising as a woman so much in love with me. She’s so wonderful; words cannot suffice to describe how she makes my life great.

But living with Beth for twenty years has its ugly phases, especially now that she’s hurting and suffering from an unwelcome intruder in our lives. Now, I know she’s only human. Her kidneys failed and life has been on a tailspin. The dizzying speed of the successive events almost took my breath away. My heart is crushed every time I look at her face and sees the pain; but then, she will smile, and everything will be normal.

I am not surprised how she can do this to me, because I know her secret. Beth is like a moon – she radiates the glory of Someone mightier and more powerful – God.

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The Nile of Denial

The Nile has been very beneficial to Egypt. It has been the life source of Egypt and Sudan. The Wikipedia called it the “primary water resource and so… the life artery for its downstream countries such as Egypt and Sudan.” Aside from these two countries, eight other countries share the resources this river provides. Its tributaries extend through national boundaries. Acknowledged as the longest river in the world, its 6,650-kilometer stretch teems with different marine animals providing foods on millions of people along its shores.

Denial is a defense mechanism every kidney patients go through. Beth has gone through this as well as I. The first time I heard of the news of her kidneys’ failure, I cried bitterly. I almost ask God why. While we are planning on how to serve Him more, this crisis happened. As we are planning how to open two extension Bible Study classes for children and one for adults, her kidney are deteriorating. The first reaction is denial. This cannot be happening to us. God will not forsake His faithfuls.

But it happened. We cannot deny the tubes inserted her body to prepare her for dialysis. The needles going through her veins are not phantoms. They hurt. The laboratory results are real. The nurses attending to her needs are not ghosts. Everything is real. I can touch them all, see them all, and hear them all.

I have to get out of Nile of denial, no matter how beneficial it can be. Staying there will ultimately drown me as those whose ship sank in the Nile, where 150 people get died. I will not get anything good from this defense mechanism, except temporarily relief from pain of seeing my dearest slowly waste away.How can I deny these things? Denial eases the pain; but reality will help me do what is right and plan for the correct course of action. I would admit I find bliss at denial, but everything around me booms to wake me up to face reality.

 

As said, reality bites; its bites are very painful but waking me up to face reality and learn to trust God more. I can face the future with God by my side. I can go over the Nile of denial because God cares.

Note: Beth’s latest laboratory test showed another decrease of 200 units from her creatinine level, although her hemoglobin is a bit lower than normal. Praise the Lord!

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Extensions of God’s Hands

(No pictures are posted to protect these peoples’ privacy, except for our Congresswoman, Hon. Herminia Roman. However, I would like to ask you to pray for these people, mentioned here or not, who deserve better than what they already have.)

I want to use this post to mention people who helped us go through this crisis in our life.

Kuya Boy and Ate Lanie Canlas. Sis. Lanie went all out to help us. Vehicles, time, presence and money – she did not spare anything to help us bear what we are going through. She even offered her condo in Loyola Heights, Quezon City, and her house in Orani, Bataan, so we can have a place to rest. Her sister Daisy Barlit selflessly gave us an amount of money. We have not spent that entire amount until now; we are saving it for future use. Another sister is Joyce Bernaldo, and her husband Alex. She’s always there for us, encouraging us. Each time I ask for prayers, she’s the first one to send a text message informing us that she’s praying for us.

Our congresswoman, Herminia Roman, also helped us. Her assistant in Manila, Ms. Lyn, and her Coordinator at the National Kidney and Transplant Institute, Ms. Carmen, are also very supportive. I believe their kindness and dedication is a reflection of Ms. Roman’s generosity and commitment to help people in need. I have heard before how Ms. Roman has been helping patients at the NKTI, the National Lung Center, and at the National Heart Center, among other health institutions. Now I know first-hand how she really cares for her constituents.

My mother, Ofelia Garcia, and my siblings also gave a supporting hand. They gave their prayers, time and money. My mother, now 69, regularly goes to our place to help us in house chores. Travel time is more than two hours in a cramped public transport. For an arthritic like her, that would be punishment enough to get discouraged and to stop going to our place. My sister Espie talked to all her friends who may help us with Beth’s dialysis. My brother Uly and sister Jeolfa also tried everything to give assistance to us. I cannot ask for more.

Kuya La Verne Santos is worth mentioning here. He introduced us to Ms. Roman’s services. He volunteered his car so we will not have to travel in public transportation. He also helped me carry our luggage to our house. And we gave him only a glass of cold water, a wave and a prayer.

The list can be very long and my post will exceed my target number of words. Mentioned here or not, rest assured that I will continue upholding you in prayers.

Dear God, I humbly come before You now to pray for those who help us as we try to overcome this trial in our life. I thank You for letting us know these people. They helped us despite their own needs and trials. They did not think of their own interests; they helped us with the best that they have. You know that I cannot give them anything in return. But I know You can do something wonderful in their lives. Please, touch their lives, Lord. Work out a miracle for each of these people who went out to help us endure. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

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No More Explanations

The Need for Continuous Prayers for Beth

To my followers, I’m sure you are waiting for the results of Beth’s laboratory tests. I am glad to tell you that her creatinine level went down by 600 units. That’s a great improvement, and if this continues to happen, Beth’s condition will be a lot better. I would like to thank you for your prayers. Prayers really do miracles in our lives.

Prayer is conversing with God. It is a two-way communication. You speak to God and you listen to what he is going to say. In prayer, we do not command God to do some things for us. When we pray, we talk to a friend and open our hearts and minds. It is more of an attempt to deepen your intimacy with the Lord, rather than getting what we need.

There are some meaningful quotations about prayer that I want to share with you. These are not my original; I just read it from somewhere I cannot remember.

The strongest man in the world is he whose knees bend most easily.

This means that the man who knows how to bend his knees to pray usually can endure trials coming his way. And because he pray, he can draw strength from God who can help him in all that he does. This way, he can withstand every trials that come his way.

Mountains are climbed with bent knees.

This is true with mountain climbing and with praying. We need to bend our knees to climb mountains and gain new heights. In the same way, we can also overcome mountain-sized problem by bending our knees to pray. Without this practice, people will fail and get disappointed every time they experience difficulties in life.

Prayer is the hand that moves the Hand that moves the whole world.

The Hand that moves the whole world is the hand of God. God is so powerful that he can change even the course of history and improve the lives of even the vilest sinner. He is greater than the most powerful person on earth, because he can give and take life. But prayer is the hand that can influence this powerful Hand to do miracles in our lives.

Finally,

If your problem is as big as the ship, God is as big as the sea.

If your problem is as big as the sea, God is as big as the Earth.

If your problem is as big as the Earth, God is as big as our solar system.

If your problem is as big as our solar system, God is as big as the universe.

If your problem is as big as the universe, God is as big as the God, and nothing or no one can be bigger than the God.

This last quotation does not need any more explanation.

 

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The Moment of Truth

How to Expect and not be Disappointed

Today is the moment of truth. Beth will have her laboratory tests today as she completes her first month of dialysis sessions. We have been praying for ten days so she will have 300 or below level of creatinine. Her last lab test showed 1,500 creatinine. Creatinine are toxins accumulating in the body due to kidney malfunction or failure. It slowly kills the person. Dialysis flushes out these toxins but only to a certain level. Beth’s doctor said that she should be happy with maintaining 600 to 800. But we are hoping for better results.

Are we expecting too much? Yes. Don’t we believe what the doctors said? No. Actually, we have already accepted what she said. We did not question her expected results. We know that what she said is based on facts and careful research, but we want something better. Aren’t we satisfied with what the doctor gave us? We will be glad to have Beth’s creatinine level decrease to 600 (that’s 900 levels down!) But our faith expects something better. Don’t we all?

Everyone expects something better. This is the reason behind our sacrifices. We sacrifice things only because we want something better, otherwise we won’t give up what we have. We can live with our school and office mates, because we want something better in our lives. We give up the comfort of our homes, we get out, and we work hard until our bones ache, because we expect something better. We take the risk of disappointment, because not everything we expect happens. But we can do something about this.

I have these tips so you won’t get disappointed when what you expect does not happen.

1. Be realistic. If your General Schedule pay grade is 5, you must not expect earning what your superiors earn. You may get it someday, but you must study, work hard and wait for the right time. You must not expect to receive five loaves of bread, if you paid for one loaf only. You can only expect what is logically possible, but this must not hinder you to dream bigger dreams.

2. Accept that life isn’t fair. You don’t always get what you deserve (and I thank the Lord because I don’t get what must be given me!) There are some people who take what is rightfully yours. Some powerful men trample on others’ rights. Criminals do not discriminate – attacking anyone. Drug dependents sometimes have bad trips and hurt anyone who crosses their way. On the other hand, there are times when we receive favors we do not deserve. That’s life.

3. Believe. Faith is essential to fighting disappointments. Believe that everything happens for a purpose, and that there is a right time for everything. And when things happen in its appropriate time, it must be beautiful.

I could be disappointed with all the things happening in my life right now, but I trust God knows what is best for me. And he will see me through, as always. Because in every moment of truth, God does not disappoint me.

 

 

 

 

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Happily Ever Laughter

The Benefits of Laughing with your Loved Ones

In our house, you will always hear laughter. Every day passes with sounds of laughter from each member of my family. The one with the corniest jokes, and thereby, the one who makes us laugh the hardest is my wife, Beth. (Keeping my fingers crossed that she won’t read this post or I’ll be in B-I-G trouble. LOL!)

Beth is a very bad punch liner. She lacks timing. Many times she would laugh long before she delivers her punch line. There are times when my children and I need to think first before we can get her joke. That is after she had laugh with tears in her eyes, because she believes her jokes are very funny. Her choice of jokes is as bad as her delivery, too.

But when she laughs, we all laugh. When her face crumples to a happy face, we also smile. When her round eyes become slits, because she’s very happy with her jokes, our eyes get wet with tears of happiness. We laugh, not because we oblige, but because her laughter is so contagious, we cannot help but join her laughing. Anyway, isn’t it true that the corniest jokes receive the loudest laughter? Besides, Beth has a way of capturing everyone’s hearts, making us laugh.

Tonight, Beth suddenly laughed. Everyone looked at her.

“What happened?” Daeia, Johndee and I simultaneously asked. But we three are smiling already, because we can almost anticipate what will happen next.

“Where did you get this book?” Beth asked Daeia. She’s holding a red book in her hand.

We suddenly realized what made her laugh. We left her this morning in the dialysis center, while she was sleeping, and while the nurses are taking care of her. We went to a book store and bought a small red book. We did not notice that she got hold of that book.

The title of the book is Mama, Get the Hammer! There’s a Fly on Papa’s Head! Barbara Johnson is the author of the book. And the cover of the book depicts a small boy frantically running to her shocked mother’s direction. On the foreground is a balding head of an old man with a big fly on his forehead.

Yes, it is kind of funny, but not as funny as the way it hit Beth. No one in our family has read the book, but it already has brought a round of jokes in our home, because Beth started it. That’s how she influences us and makes everyone happy.

Beth is the light of our home, and she makes our lives lighter than it should be. With the crisis we are in, my children and I wonder where she gets her very positive disposition. I think she loves us so much, she does not want us to worry about her. Well. We don’t worry, because we love her so much, we can laugh at her corny jokes.

 

 

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Countdown to a Miracle… For Sure

On Dec 28, my wife, Beth, will have her first laboratory test after a month of dialysis sessions. That will be eight days from now. I am calling all my readers and followers to join my family in prayers for God’s healing. We are hoping for 300 or below creatinine level. We believe God can do miracles. Thank you and God bless us all.

 

The doctors predicted Beth’s creatinine level will reach 600 and above at best, but we believe God can do better than that. We are not losing hope that God will do something extraordinary because He is mightier and His healing powers extends even to AIDS victims, cancer sufferers and kidney patients like Beth.

“What are you doing?” I am so engrossed with writing this post I did not notice Beth getting near me.

“Blog post,” I said. “I failed to post in Family Matters for a week now.”

“No, what I mean is your asking your readers to pray for me.”

“Oh, that. What’s wrong with that?”

“Not everyone who reads your posts pray, do they?”

“Not everyone, yes.” I said with sadness.

“You’re getting desperate.”

“No, I’m not.” I know she can detect in the tone of my voice that I am lying. I am desperate.

“But it’s good to know there are people praying for me.” She smiled. The kind of smile that relaxes me. I love this woman. I don’t know what I will do if she will not get well.

“I love you.” I held her hand.

“I love you more. And God loves us the most.”

“Yes, He does. Thanks for being by my side now.”

“You can always count on me.”

“Yes, I know.”

“For sure…”

“For sure.”

 

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Playing Favorites

How my Mother Treated Us Differently yet Effectively

My mother, who is a Senior Citizen, is living with us now to assist my wife. Before, she was with my older sister helping my niece, who just delivered her baby. Before that, she was with my younger sister assisting in any way she can, because my sister works, and there’s no one to take care of her two-year-old daughter. My mother also helps my only brother in all ways she can.

One day, during Sunday School, the teacher of the Senior Citizen class asked who her favorite child is. She said, “Parents don’t play favorites. They simply treat their children according to their needs.”

“And what do you mean by that?” her teacher asked.

“We give our children what will help them develop. We train them as we see them. When one child is stubbornly disobeying us, we discipline him, because he needs correction. When another child is hungry, we give him food, because that’s what he needs. We should not discipline all our children, because one of them disobeys us. Neither do we give bread to everyone even if only one child is hungry.”

“Very well said. Any more ideas?”

Another Senior Citizen raised her hand and said, “That is true. Sadly, our children perceive it as playing favorites, but we are actually dealing with them individually.”

“And some of our kids regret being disciplined, while his siblings are being fed,” an old man from the back said.

The teacher agreed. “Individual differences play a big role on how we deal with our children. In the Bible, Isaac and Rebecca had two sons, Esau and Jacob. Esau was Isaac’s ‘favorite’, because he is a hunter. Rachel’s ‘favorite’ is Jacob, because he loves to do household chores. This led to deception and taking advantage of the other, and threatened the stability of Isaac’s family. If you were Isaac’s neighbor, what will you tell him?”

“I will tell him that favoritism will ruin his family, as we see in biblical accounts of how Jacob deceived his father with his mother’s help. He stole the blessings intended for Esau. Consequently, he needed to run for his and his family’s lives. I won’t like that kind of family,” the old man at the back chimed in.

“I will advise Isaac to have time together with his family so they can discuss his children’s differences, and why they are being treated differently. That’s what I did with my children, and they live loving each other, understanding each other’s shortcomings.” That was my mother explaining how she raised us up.

“To be honest, I really admire your family. Your children are very intelligent and successful. I wish my children are, although to some extent I can see they are gearing toward that direction,” the woman beside my mother said.

When all have shared their thought, I invited them to pray.

I really love teaching the Sunday School class for Senior Citizens, especially when my mother is there.

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